My world has been spinning and I am getting lost in it. My mind is foggy and I can't seem to think straight no matter how hard I try. This feels like more then something physically going on with me.I have felt this before and this morning I realized that God has been trying to get my attention. He is allowing things to become so mundane that I can’t even focus on them.
As I sat in my lawn chair this morning the realization of what this feeling was hit me. He first led me to Romans 4:7 where it says “He has given everyone a special gift” and immediately after that I heard him say, “I want you to finish your book this fall”. This feeling that I have been having is a call to write, to spend time with him in heavenly places so in turn I can not only write about it, but to help others and to lead others to Him in such a way.
I believe He is allowing things to be out of focus and mundane even to the point of my brain hurting because it is taking that much for Him to get my attention. You see, a few weeks ago I started to feel this tugging and uneasiness. Something wasn’t sitting right and I knew then that God was trying to get my attention about something. But I didn’t listen, well I didn’t follow through with this feeling. I allowed it to get pushed to the backburner because of my business with life. I didn’t discipline myself to seek His face and to see what was going on.
Because of my own doing I lost focus not only on what God was trying to get my attention on but on daily life. I couldn’t focus at work, I couldn’t focus at home and yes, I may have slight ADHD (undiagnosed) but this last week was amped up so much that it was happening everyday, all day to the point of my brain actually hurting and to the point of tears. Even in that I knew in the back of my mind that God was trying to get my attention. I wasn’t myself and I had to keep apologizing to my husband because I wasn’t acting like myself.
God wants our attention! He wants all of it! He wants us to seek Him out but He is also seeking us out. Pulling us out of the woodwork of life to shine the light and love of Christ to the world that He has placed us in. Being in the world but not of it.
And yes, we have lives here on earth to live, jobs, families, etc. But in all of that are we living our lives for Christ, seeking His face in everything that we do? He has given each and every one of us a special gift, unique to each person. He is calling us to work on and live out our lives using the gifts that He has given us and we get so lost, so distracted that we lose sight of our true call and true purpose here on earth. To love God with everything we are and to love people in the way that He designed each and every one of us to.
So if you feel uneasiness in your spirit or tugging or just that something is off. God is most likely trying to get your attention and it is time to slow down, get before Him and ask Him what is going on and He will reveal it to you.
Ephesians 4:7, Jerimiah 29:13, John 4:23, Ezekiel 34:11